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Love Letter to Earth-Bound Creatives
Do not fear their reaction to you. It is not worth folding yourself into something so small that you fail to exist. Find the other strange ones who are still trying. Then go home, close the door, and return to your works and love.
Reiteration
I’m returning my hours to them.
FREEDOM
Freedom won by turning the mirror
to watch the thing behind me—
to finally walk into its own proportions,
survive its own weather,
wear its impossible shape—
and all without my hands to fix it.
Small Update
Life is short. Most people are understandably focused on their own lives, goals, and priorities.
TO BIND TO FINISH
So the water holds it all,
So the working does not fall,
Sealed by hand and sealed by art,
Sealed by what came from my part.
Vanishing
A white vessel split upon the dark,
its flawless halves made sacred
only after the fracture.
Poem: Anyway
Tin stars.
Empty bottles.
Poem: The Night Falls
when the promised dawn
forgets how to come
Part Two: The Weight of Accumulated Silence
Likability was never a reliable measure of goodness. It was sometimes simply nothing more than a sign of how much had been suppressed. What becomes possible, slowly, is disappointing others without disappearing in the process.
The Courage to Be Unlikable
Releasing the need for approval requires allowing others their disappointment, risking being misread, accepting that integrity may cost belonging. It doesn't reject connection. It denies the hidden contracts of self-denial that connections sometimes ask for.
ESSAY: Manners
Manners are evidence that we understand we are not the only ones here.
Poem: Hidden In Light
to hold vertical lines
while something at the center branches,
and keeps deciding,
and keeps asking which way,
and it knows where the light comes from.
POEM: Here I Am
And remaining light is its own gravity—
a joy in knowing the price of joy,
that hums this low and stubborn note
from the low and stubborn cellar
of the low and stubborn still-alive—
it’s the way a string keeps singing
after the hand and stick have lifted.
ESSAY: The Human Body
No textbook prepared me for the colors, and no drawing prepared me for the forms. What struck me first was not death. It was beauty— I was not prepared for that either.
POEM: The Labels
There is a logic to resemblance:
the brain's ventricles hold their still water.
The breast tissue, removed then placed on cloth,
look like two eyes that have stopped seeing.
POEM: Postictal
and my delirium
my joy are lifting
and rising, and lifting —
POEM: Between Our Departures
Maybe the city finally folded itself
into the long green hill, or the flat lands—
the roads at last surrendered to rain,
the banners sad, forgot the names
we stitched into them by lantern light.
In Memoriam
ESSAY: The Dock Among the Lilies
When I remember the dock, I no longer think about the person I was trying to escape.
I think about the woman sitting quietly among the reeds and lilies, listening to the water, unaware that she was practicing for the rest of her life.